I truly belive that everything happens for a reason. I have been through hard things that have made me weak and struggles that have made me strong. I have lost friends and have been distanced from family. all for a reason.
I look at life as much as i can through rose colored glass. i see the glass as half full or at least i try to. I believe in fairytales and happy endings and i hope all of this for everyone.
stories wheather real or fake have a way of toying with my emotions and pulling at my heart strings and i wish i could control it.
I have been secreatly looking forward to the season finale of the bachlor for weeks i have avidly sat and watched every monday, dvrd Jasons morning show interviews and ((spoiler))
when he picked melissa i was soo happy, i loved her she reminded me soo much of me i wanted her to win him i didnt want to see her hurt and then he friggen hurt her anyways!!!!!! so im sitting here yelling at the screen... DUMBASS YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO CRY. why do men think that its okay to break hearts, kill dreams and hurt people only to have regrets and want second chances?? buddy you are outtttta your gosh darn friggen mind!!
as tears are rolling down my face...
i have to admit i really could careless about the lives of these people as selfish as it sounds
i am so enternally greatful that the last few years of my life my stars have aligned and i am about to turn off the tv and crawl into the arms of the man of my dreams. He has a true heart, he is a fighter a giver and a real true man. I am so extreamly lucky to be able to trust completly, to be made whole to be supported through every breakdown i may have and be pushed higher when i feel high. I am so totally completly in love like a little kid seeing mickey for the first time in love. He doesnt need any second chances he cares so much, he gives so much and for his love, support and heart i am eternally greatful. I will spend the rest of my life trying to give as much love as he has.
if your reading this....
i love you and i want the world to know!
my obsession.
Just me.
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Things to complete before the end of 2009!
1 Complete Aruba album
2 take a cooking class
3 loose 5 pounds and flatten my stomach
4 get healthy with exercise/ attend a spin class
5 read more self help books
6 learn to bead.. ill post pictures later
7 sew a quilt
8 dye my hair
9 paint a mural
10 eat a hamburger
11 throw a party
12 change a tire (learn)
13 take a picture of a whale
14 Join a volenteer group
15 buy flowers regularly
16 grow an herb garden
17 start a "me" album
18 grow out my hair
19 Make yummy fudge- thanks stephie
20 properly refinish a piece of furniture
21 Complete a fo-finish technique on a wall
22 train april
23 get makeup lessons
24 read an autobiography
25 make an apron
26 make a new friend
27 make a family tree
28 cook a perfect steak
29 hike to a waterfall
30 Go to movie alone
31 Camp on a beach
32 Catch a sunrise
33 Swim in the ocean
34 Try wakeboarding (again)
35 Visit a lighthouse
36 crochet a blanket
37 fly a kite
38 visit a butterfly garden
39 Buy the perfect pair of sunglasses
40 play the drums (any kind)
41 Scuba dive
42 Send a message in a bottle
43 Sleep under the stars
44 learn golf
45 get a professional massage
46 make the perfect omlete
47 learn sign language (again)
48 drink a martini
49 walk one of those charity walks
50 Go to a drive in movie
2 take a cooking class
3 loose 5 pounds and flatten my stomach
4 get healthy with exercise/ attend a spin class
5 read more self help books
6 learn to bead.. ill post pictures later
7 sew a quilt
8 dye my hair
9 paint a mural
10 eat a hamburger
11 throw a party
12 change a tire (learn)
13 take a picture of a whale
14 Join a volenteer group
15 buy flowers regularly
16 grow an herb garden
17 start a "me" album
18 grow out my hair
19 Make yummy fudge- thanks stephie
20 properly refinish a piece of furniture
21 Complete a fo-finish technique on a wall
22 train april
23 get makeup lessons
24 read an autobiography
25 make an apron
26 make a new friend
27 make a family tree
28 cook a perfect steak
29 hike to a waterfall
30 Go to movie alone
31 Camp on a beach
32 Catch a sunrise
33 Swim in the ocean
34 Try wakeboarding (again)
35 Visit a lighthouse
36 crochet a blanket
37 fly a kite
38 visit a butterfly garden
39 Buy the perfect pair of sunglasses
40 play the drums (any kind)
41 Scuba dive
42 Send a message in a bottle
43 Sleep under the stars
44 learn golf
45 get a professional massage
46 make the perfect omlete
47 learn sign language (again)
48 drink a martini
49 walk one of those charity walks
50 Go to a drive in movie
2 comments:
I was so distraught that he did that to her. so disappointed.
I am so happy you and Scott have that. I love my man in that manner also and it is a blessing to have such a deep love, hold on tight with all your heart and always remember ur blessed to have that deep a love and friendship with him.
This is all waaay to mushy for me lol
So very glad my first born is happy! One down 3 to go. May you both have many happy, prosperous, wonderful years together. (He's quite a catch)
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