ugh

Im going to be vague for many reasons, but i need to write to get it off my chest, writing always makes me feel better, and i dont feel good. I wish i could be more specific but its frustrating!

I was sooo looking forward to planning my wedding. my dream wedding with the man of my dreams. Yes, i was the girl who knew exactly what i wanted and how.

what i failed to realize, and better yet failed to yeild advice from is all the drama that goes along with it. I dont understand. I try rediculously hard at all times to make and keep everyone happy. I will do anything, spend anything and probably take a bullet for most people i know. I get that not everyone thinks the same as me but seriously, have a little damn compassion! i am so sick of he said she said, sick of the insults, sick of the secrets and sick of the drama. I dont have friends for a reason, i dont want them! i dont like drama! im going to be hospitilized by the end of the summer if i even survive it all. But the worst part is either im not supposed to know OR i will be hurting someone by saying something. What happened to the fun part of wedding planning, what happened to enjoying it and everyone being happy for us.

Happiness would be nice!
Help would be nice!
Compassion would be nice!
Sensoring your damn self would be nice!
interest would be nice!
listening would be nice!
and shutting the hellllll up would be fabulous!

I am soooo beyond done. Im ready to screw it and elope. All i want to do is marry scott! and everyone can retreat back to thier own corners and my husband and I can move on.

i am beyond stressed at this point,
Somedays i just cant stand it anymore...
95 days left and not soon enough!

today i had a bad day.

is it bad that reading about other peoples bad day makes me feel better? oh man who have i become?

http://www.fmylife.com/random

Today, I was sitting in class and I fell asleep during the lesson. I was wearing sweatpants and had an erection. My teacher came up to me and grabbed my penis. She thought it was my phone. FML

Today, the girl I love and I went to visit my parents out of state for the first time. My father grinned and acknowledged that she was a "keeper", at which she laughed and said we were "just friends". I was going to propose to her next week. FML

Today, my mom had my girlfriend and I over. Out of the blue, she pulled out my grandmothers wedding ring and gave it to me saying I can now propose. My girlfriend started screaming and said yes. I have been seeing someone else for 3 months and was going to break up with my girlfriend tomorrow. FML

Today, I saw an elderly man fall in a crosswalk, so I jumped off my bike to help. As I helped him across, the light turned green. At that point I noticed my phone had fallen out of my pocket in the street and was run over by several cars. I then watched across a 6 lane street as someone stole my bike. FML



i was trying to pick a favorite but i couldnt, they are all just too funny

FYI; FML= f*ck my life

not so good at updating

I appologize

But.. in the last few weeks I have

1. booked Rehersal dinner

2. booked welcome party

3. booked tuxes

4. MY DRESS IS HEEEREEE and went to see it!!!

5. Chose and made menus

...sneek peek!

did ya think I would really show you the menu!! come on now, gotta have some surprises but let me just tell you IT IS FABULOUS!!!!! the best food ever and i dont even like food! lol.

what else? S and I opened a joint bank account... (i seriously am in need of emoticons!!! come on blogger enable!!) mostly for wedding stuff so i can seperate my much needed money with wedding purchases since so much needs to be paid soooon

oh and FYI 149 days till the big day!!! uuuh ohhhhhh!!!!!

6. Finished sand ceremony items

7. Finished BM gifts and wrapped them

8. oh and booked my surprise... and no im not tellin NEone.

9. Chose songs for key events, mom and son, walking down isle, etc. etc.

10. Had my 50oth 'i hate wedding planning stress meltdown', but we're good again :)

I heart progress!!! but im running out of things to do!

extended forecast :)

Normals for the Requested Date: High temp: 82 F 27 C Low temp: 65 F 18 CAt this time of year, expect some precipitation approximately one day every three to four days.
2009-08-14

High temp: 79 F 26 CLow temp: 65 F 18 C
Partly cloudy and cool
2009-08-15

High temp: 80 F 26 CLow temp: 58 F 14 C
Partly cloudy and seasonable
2009-08-16

High temp: 80 F 26 CLow temp: 62 F 16 C
Partly cloudy and seasonable
2009-08-17

High temp: 82 F 27 CLow temp: 60 F 15 C
Partly cloudy and seasonable
2009-08-18

High temp: 82 F 27 CLow temp: 64 F 17 C
Partly cloudy and seasonable

OMG also seriously addicted to DIYbride.com.... ahhh more projects!