blogging..

I feel the need to write something today. Im sure it wont be long but i think i will feel better once i have said things.

Im dissapointed. I would think that with all this nice weather we are having the warm sun and spending time outdoors i would feel better than i do. Im not sure what it is. I am feeling down on myself again. I need to do something, i need to make a change. I want to go back to school or take a class, join a club or something. I need to do something important with my life and not just sit around and let other people get me down.

Work has been great. (i cannot wait till my DM gets back from vacation.. (more on that another time)) but really i enjoy going to work again, we are getting better as a whole team and it feels great. Except that still i work too much, i now know what i like it there and i have found what im good at. I am still undecided with what i want to do for the REST of my life, i cant see myself in retail forever. This was easier when i was younger and ambitious, i was too lucky knowing what i wanted to do early and now i dont.

I need to get out there. i need to get back to the things that i love. I never even finished my photograhy class. Its easier now that its warm. I want to take pictures again.

I get to start my new meds soon which will hopefully help, this is the first time i am actually excited about meds (hence the sharing) so even though mr. weatherman is calling for rain again soon, im sure i will start looking brighter again something i actually have control over.

especially if i win my Nashville Tickets!!!! Keep your fingers crossed for me and say a few little prayers... I WAAAAANT to go!!! LOLOL. (drawing is Monday)