sad

I am sad i have no pictures to report with.. I havent even picked up my camera since the beginning of February. I feel like i am working none stop, the worst it has ever been, i rarly get in "these" moods but im in one now and i cant seem to snap out of it. I hate it and i dont know who to talk to about it. I need a break. break from everything. I need everyone to just let me be. I want to take pictures and do crafts and do the things i love with the people i love but instead i am always moving around the lives of everyone else around me and in the last few weeks have not had a chance to catch up. Everyday is a rush again, a feeling i try hard to avoid.

I wont write too much, everyone always seems to twist turn and talk behind my back about anything ever said.. everyone always seems to know me better than i do..

Really i just want to give up again, its been the longest 3 weeks of my life so far i have had in a long time. When do i get time? when will i not feel guilty all the time? when do i get to stop thinking about everyone else? when do i get to complain without someone making it about them? who do i even have to listen.

i have hit the wall again. Too many frustrations keep me from making any changes. the changes i need.

Tomarrow is another day.

I cannot wait to take pictures tomorrow.