update

my camera seems to not want to be working lately so i havent gotten any pictures. Aside from that, i have been too busy to even get on here and write anything!

I have a little time before i get back to work so i thought i would give a little (short) update on a few things that have been going on.

Work has been insane as you can imagine, retial toy store the month of christmas and all. I have never been talked to and treated so poorly in my life from the rude, nasty) and a few more choice words i will leave out) customers. I wrote a few blogs about these people who think they rule the world and are the only ones who are doing thier shopping. People who think the world should revolve around them and that us retialers who for thier information are MOST important to assist all thier shopping needs can preform magic tricks to get them what they want and when and la la la la laa. AH! Some days i just cannot take it anymore. I want to know why they think they are entitled to the things they think they are and why they can talk to people the way that they do. And people think shopping in NYC during christmastime is a nightmare... id rather be there then in MA. its horrible!!
Anyway, i decided to leave those rants off here for now, maybe to post at a later date.

I have been thinking a lot about christmas lately. I used to LOVE this time of year. The music, the happiness the warmth it is the giving season that i wish people would embrace all year. But ill take it as i can. When i was little there was nothing more magical than decorating the house, the colors the lights the candles i loved every bit of it! As i got older i found my magic in the shoppiong malls, the crowds of people carrying gifts for thier loved ones to enjoy. My magic was driving wiht my mom to the mall signing silver bells at the top of our lungs. Fighting for parking spaces, wishing it would snow. I love NYC at christmas time. Many of the things that so many adults get angered by i always felt magic. I always saw the greatness in what shopping really meant and Loved every bit of the holiday season. It couldnt last long enough. I loved the snow. My family and I would pray the plows wouldnt come and we would sled down the road infront of our hosue. Build snowman. I miss that. I miss hot chocolate and snow days and making memories. I dont remmeber the last time i made a memory. I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling of being alone. Enjoying the holiday magic bymyself and it just isnt the same. I miss it. Where did the magic go?

Back to my real life update. The last time i worked was monday and although i was glad to not have to deal with customers for a week it was not a pleasent vacation. I had my wisdom teeth out on monday I was SO EXCITED though that my mom was comming for the week to keep me company! As long as I was on drugs i was okay enough to keep my eyes open (kinda) I dont remmeber monday much and tuesday i thought the week would never end. Each day i got a little better and was able to cut back on the drugs...just a little. Ice packs were my savior also. Mom and scottie took good care of me forcing me to eat something and making sure i wash my mouth out every two hours! yuck! I will skip all the gory details but it went okay. I am still in a good amount of pain today but at least I am up. I am showered and this will be my first time outside since monday. lol. My jaw is killing me, work should be interesting!

I am all alone again, missing mom, missing christmas, missing a life. My jaw, head and ear are killing me, and im not in a good mood. the day is half over, taking one hour at a time.

im not even going to reread that becuas eim sure it is jagged makes no sense and is horribly misspelled. lol but you get the idea

have a good day